For many nights, tormented by the eyes of a donkey, I have been unable to sleep. Each night I walk through the town until morning.
I saw the donkey as I was returning to my home several weeks ago. He was lying in the darkness of a solitary street. His one front leg was broken, and I could see that he was not able to move. I tried to avoid his glance but, when he raised his head to look at me, my eyes fixed on him of their own accord, because this donkey bore a remarkable resemblance to Hussani Powely.
Let me tell you the story of Hussani Powely. Alhough it is usually the study of the humanities that enables one to distinguish human beings from animals, in my case it was mathametics which initated my lifelong attempt to discern the true avatar of humanity. My father tested my mathematical knowledge for the first time with this question:
"How many animals are there in our courtyard?"
"Nine," I replied confidently.
"No, there are not nine, my son," my father replied with the same confidence.
But according to my learning there were nine, and to prove the truth I started counting on my tender fingers, "Two cows, three goats, one mare, one donkey, one dog, and one Hussani Powely. So that is nine."
Father laughed and replied, "But Hussani Powely is not an animal. Hussani is the servant of our family. He is a human being like us."
I did not agree with Father. How could Hussani be a human being when he lived with our animals? We, father and son, could not settle the dispute on our own; therefore we presented the case to Grandfather to be adjudicated. All the family gathered around us as I boldly stated my case.
"If Hussani Powely is a man," I said, "then why does he not live like us? Why does he remain always with animals? He even sleeps on the ground among those animals. As I sleep, in my dreams, I see him barking and eating grass. I see him walking like a donkey."
Grandfather announced the final decision: Hussani Powely was a human being. I was sad to have lost the case. I could not sleep that night because my tiny brain was not ready to accept the fact that Hussani Powely was a human being. However, I was somewhat consoled when Grandfather gave me one rupee as a reward for the strength of my argument.
The Powelys were the untouchable people of the village. They earned their livelihood by doing mean work, such as fetching water and weaving shawls. But Hussani was not even considered acceptable in that low-cast community.
Hussani's mother never revealed the secret of the wherabouts of his father. She died when Hussani was only ten years old. After her death, Hussani's relatives drove him out of their home, reviling him as a "whore's son". My grandfather, who was the chief of the village, took pity on him and brought him into our home.
Our village was on the foot of the hot, dry mountains. Because of the very low water level, our land was fit not for agriculture but only for grazing. One of Hussani's duties was to graze our animals all day long in the far-off fields.
Another of Hussani's duties was to fetch water for us. He was obliged to get up early in the morning to do this because he had to begin his grazing duties soon afterward.
At sunset Hussani would appear in the village riding our ass, a very slow-moving animal. Because of his big front teeth, he always looked as if he were smiling. The region's hot sun had made his skin the colour of burnt onyx. While sitting on the ass he looked like a man of the old stone age, live confirmation that the initial human beings did, indeed, develop from monkeys.
As Hussani rode slowly through the streets, he had to face the mocking remarks of the higher-class men. A few rascals had propagated the belief that Hussani had had an illegitimate relationship with the ass. One man would remark, "Hey Hussani, the ass’s movement shows that you have made good use of her today."
Another man would say from the tea hut, "No, no friends, do not say like this, this ass is the only sister of Hussani. How can he do it with his sister?" Another insult would then come from some other direction.
Hussani never replied to his superiors' insults; rather, he would respond with loud laughter.
Besides the ass, our family also owned a mare. Riding the mare would not have drawn such derision onto Hussani. But he was a Powely; he was born to ride only the lowly donkeys.
In the evening I, a young child, would stand at the big front door of our courtyard and peer into the distance. I would see Hussani coming down from the Black Mountains with the slow-moving goats, a bedraggled soldier leading retreating troops. In the darkening evening, the bells tied around the necks of the goats gave a melancholic sound. In contrast to the sweet sounds of the bells, Hussani's voice resembled the tragic music of some old film.
Hussani never came home empty handed. He always brought something for me. One day he would bring wild fruits, the next day flowers. Most often, he would bring mushrooms. But, when he brought home a story of mysterious creatures or wolves for me to hear, I was the happiest of all.
Thursday and Friday were the best days of the week for Hussani Powely. On those days the simple villagers would cook special dishes to put under the thick-stumped trees in the barren fields. They believed that there lived some ghosts in those trees and that the only way to avoid the ghosts' wrath was to present them with sweet dishes. Once alone with the goats in the fields, Hussani would eat as much of the food as he could.
Years passed. I became older, my grandparents died, my elder brothers became fathers. But there was no change in Hussani’s life except that his responsibilities increased. He had to lift even more water on his feeble shoulders. My uncle, now head of the family, often beat Hussani for his growing weakness.
One day an unexpected change occurred in Hussani's personality. He had only one dress, which he had used to wash once in a month. But it started appearing more neat; he had started washing his dress every week. This behaviour created much puzzlement. The puzzle was solved when it was learned that Hussani was in love with one of the beggars’ daughters.
The beggars lived outside the village and were even more detestible than the Powelys. Hussani had won the beggar's daughter because he had some status among the beggars; he was the servant of the chief of the village.
Soon the news of Hussani's disgusting love affair reached my uncle. He could have scolded Hussani alone. But he did the deed in the presence of all.
On the night of Hussani's chastisement, all the nobles of the village gathered for an evening of amusement in the big sitting room of my uncle. Hussani sat on the earth in the centre of the crowd.
"Well, Hussani, is it true that you are in love with the daughter of a beggar?" said my uncle in his heavy voice.
Hussani did not reply. He sat silently with his head extremely bowed.
"His mother was also a great lover," said one of the nobles, and there was much laughter. The old men told, for all to hear, dirty jokes at the expense of Hussani's deceased mother.
Hussani’s love died under the shame of that stifling laughter. Late that night, when Hussani rose from the meeting, he was rid of the burden of his love. He lifted the pitchers and started doing his work as if nothing had happened. No one ever saw him near the huts of the beggars again.
Later, I had to leave the village in search of a job. I settled in the town. The vicious circle of life slowly dragged me away, and I left Hussani far behind.
After many years, I returned to the village to attend the marriage ceremony of my cousin. I searched for Hussani but did not find him anywere. On enquiring, I found that he was suffering from tuberculosis. He was counting his last days in a barren hut outside the village.
I knew that he would not be taken to a doctor because no one would be willing to help that donkey-like man. It would have been considered a humiliation to give any help to Hussani. I ran at once to his home.
Hussani was lying, alone, in that dark and cold hut. For a few minutes he did not recognise me, but soon his eyes sparkled and he started weeping with joy. He tried to speak, but an attack of severe coughing prevented him from uttering so much as a word. He was experiencing horrible pain with each breath.
Unable to tolerate that stinking atmosphere, I had to leave. "Hussani," I said before I left, "don’t worry. Tomorrow I will take you to a doctor. You will soon be all right."
But, at the open door of the hut, I looked back at Hussani and saw the shadow of death on his withered face. And, indeed, that very night he died. He was buried the next morning. There was no religious ceremony upon his death because no one knew what his religion was.
Now, after many years, the dying donkey in this solitary street has brought back to me that forgotten image of Hussani Powely. I wonder how the villagers allowed Hussani's body to be buried in the graveyard of humans, for he never spent a day of his life among men.
Why do humans claim to be the most civilized creatures of the universe? Do we have that right?
Who is the real human being: the one who is conquering space or the one who is dying alone in the darkness? The one who is making big brick walls, developing nuclear power, and conquering Mars, or the one who suffers an entire life of unearned humiliation without once protesting? Or perhaps the donkeys, who do not knowingly hurt any sentient creature, are the most human of all.
Only God knows the true nature of humanity.
